My darling Sugar,
Today marks one full month since you passed. Each day does not get easier. It feels like just yesterday we were in the hospital, fighting, hoping we could turn it around. It also feels like a lifetime since we embraced and exchanged I love yous.
I walked the streets in our neighbourhood today and I was a myriad of emotions; envious of the young families I passed, annoyed by those complaining about things that just don’t matter and in shock that people passed me without seeing my sadness, not knowing how empty and broken I feel.
This journey has taught me to be so very thankful for our daughter, and the people in our lives who truly care and have been there for us. It has also taught me to truly not sweat the small stuff and to live each day to the fullest and tell the people around me just how much they are loved.
As the days, weeks, months and eventually years go by, I don’t expect to miss you any less but I do hope the ache in my heart and lump in my throat dissipate.
I hope that you’re able to see us and see just how bright, funny and beautiful our daughter is already growing to be. At only 19 months, she seems to comprehend all of this more than she should – often looking at me and saying “Daddy? Miss Daddy. Miss him.” You will always be alive in her.
We love you.
Your Sweetness and Cuteness